A letter from God.

To those who had fought in my name, and the names of my fellow heavenly beings.

Once upon a lifetime, I was a human being like yourself. I was conceived by my parents, given birth by my mother, washed, dressed, fed and taught the necessary things needed to know. Then came a day when my parents took me to a place where people gather. They would silently chant a phrase of words together at the same time. I asked my father:

“Dad, what is it that you, Mum, grandpa and all the others were saying in whispers?”

“It’s called a prayer.” says my father.

“Come, I will teach you the words to say so that we could pray together.”

And so the time comes when I am a fully-grown adult, both my parents and grandparents had died. I was yet to be married to anyone, although there was this girl at our place of worship whom I had feelings for. I was an active member of our religious group, and my devotion to the teachings, and the God of our religion had made my beliefs totally unshaken. Sometimes there were people who would utter words, saying that our ways has corrupted, and most of the time this angers me. One day, our religious group leader made a sermon, saying that we should slay those who slander our religion and ways, for our God has been angered by the very existence of these heretics.

One day, we gathered those who were pious believers of our religion, all of us were armed with swords and fire torches – ready to scour the village for these “so called” heretics. We slay the mens who were marked as heretics by the people of the village, put their houses on fire and took their women and children away.

At first I thought that my actions were true and justified, that I was pleasing the Gods that I prayed to every day. It was then I found out the girl I’ve had feelings for had fled the village together with her family to another country. That night a few armed men of our religious group had gathered a search party to hunt her and her family down, and I was part of the search party. After hours of travelling on steeds we’ve had stumbled upon them, and it is in the middle of a forest that we’ve subdued them. I took that girl by the hands and told my men that I wanted to have a word with her behind this big tree, just a few walks from where her family was subdued.

I begged of her, please come back safely to our village, and since I am a man of high influence in our religious court, I asked her to marry me so that her family could be spared of the judgement which would be applied to them after being captured; death. But she kept refusing my offer, she was telling me that she didn’t love me at all, and all these while she had thought at first that I was impressive due to my devotion towards my religion but it turned out that I was actually barbaric; slaying heretics without giving them a chance to explain, and that she realized that our religion was wrong, our God was wrong, and that she’s fleeing our village so that she could marry another person whom she previously have met and had engaged to in another country.

Controlled by my anger and disappointment, I hit her head with the hilt of my sword till she fell to the ground, tore her clothing away, tied her mouth and hands, and brutally raped her many times. As she went weak, my anger was still in control of all my senses, and no feelings of remorse could overcome me as I draw my sword and murdered her. As she draws her last breath, all of a sudden consciousness took over my mind and I felt the utmost guilt. I went back to my men and her subdued family, and ordered all of her family members to be killed as well, and told my men to report to the religious court of our village that we found them dead instead, for I fear action being taken onto me for committing such heinous crimes.

The next day, our village was attacked by the armies of the country the girl I’ve had feelings for wanted to fled to. I was instead taken alive back into their country, awaiting judgement from their courts. It seems that the day I had defiled that girl and slain her whole family, a small child had witnessed all of my actions, and that child was her youngest brother who had escaped our capture. And it seems that the person she was engaged to and promised to marry was the prince regent of that country. I was sentenced to death, a brutal death of being tortured stabbed numerously with a pike before I draw my last breath.

After a few rebirths in several lower realms, at last I’ve had accumulated enough good karma to be born in heaven. It is there that I met the being who was supposed to be the God of my religion during my human rebirth. It seems that at the time I’ve had arrive in heaven he was near the brink of death. Before he passes away he whispered to me:

“You have been my utmost loyal devotee during your human birth. I am sorry that I have made you and your men suffer such fate, and for you to endure such heartbreaking moments which lead to your own demise, and caused you to suffer much more before you reach this realm. Now my time has come, I will be birthed into the human realm once again, and follow a teaching that has just recently emerged; a Buddha has emerged in the human realm and is teaching us for once how to end our suffering.”

But due to my ignorance, I didn’t even care if I could escape suffering. All I want to do now is to pleasure my senses, become a God and have thousands to millions of beings as my devotees. I made up a story to my first follower that I have created the realms in seven days, made all kinds of law for my devotees to follow while my “prophet” makes up his own laws too in addition to mine, just as long as it doesn’t supersede my set of laws.

After a very long time I started sensing a being in the human realms who had some sort of similarity to me, except that he has became fully pure-hearted – his good karma even supersedes the ones I have accumulated. I grew fond of her, although I kept on playing with the newly made religion I have introduced to humankind. My religion by now has at least made half of the total humans in their realms quarrel, fight and slaughter each other in my name, but one day I realized that the female human who had my growing fondness is actually another reincarnation of myself; the pure-hearted side of me during my human rebirth, and she had just bear a child – and that child was the girl whom I’ve wronged during my human rebirth. Seeing how throughout their lives they love and care for each other, made me shed my first tear in my whole live as a heavenly being.

Now as I am approaching the end of my life as a heavenly being, I remembered what the person who had passed away during my rebirth had said. I will be birthed in the human realm, and I will follow the teachings of the Buddha who had taught the end of our sufferings, and put an end to the religion which I have created to cause demise in the human realm.



بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

“In the name of God, Most Gracious, Most Merciful”

Should indeed be replaced with:

“In the name of the jealous God (Asura), Most Destructive, Most Merciless”

In the teachings of Islam, Allah was purportedly mentioned as using his merciless powers and authority to crush civilizations and order his followers to mercilessly murder and subdue “kafirs” as one of his “merciful” ways. Shakyamuni Buddha however, taught according to his sutras that beings possessing powers of a god who aims at destroying the real godly beings residing in the realm of heaven as asuras, meaning “jealous gods”. After studying Buddhism I have realized that the god of Islam possesses the qualities of an asura, and indeed majority of the Muslims worldwide had embodied the evilness of this asura and its jealous prophet named Muhammad, who had countlessly cursed the Christians and the Jews of his time, ordering his followers to exclusively subdue and exile these category of people living in Arabia and the rest of the world.

In my opinion, Muhammad also had contempt for the Jewish prophet Moses and the son of god Jesus in Christianity since both respective religions would revere these individuals as a person chosen by god, that’s why he wrote the Quran in a fashion where the jealous god Allah has chosen Muhammad, out of the millions of sane Arabs living in Arabia as his dearly revered prophet and messenger, so that in Muhammad’s time he could bear the ego and fame of a celebrity while he is free to murder countless men, take in their wives as concubines and sex slaves while marrying his wealthy distant cousin Khadija, marrying his own daughter in law and performing “lawful” pedophiliac acts with 9-year old Aisha – all in the name of Allah and the newly formed religion of Islam.

As you should know, the word “Islam” in Arabic means “surrender”. Most of the Arabs, Jews, Christians and other pagans who had converted into this religion had to surrender themselves to this religion in fear of being slain by the sword, especially married men who fear that their wives would be taken into the enemy’s hands as sex slaves after their deaths.

I was reading an article regarding the Maitreya Buddha, the Buddha who would succeed the historical Shakyamuni Buddha in the coming times of our future when the true teachings of Siddhartha Gautama would be lost in the world. Maitreya Buddha would come and revive the true teachings and teach all beings of attaining Nirvana and ending their rebirths in samsara. This in my opinion is the true Mercy that any beings, be it a god or a human could have blessed upon others instead of crushing civilizations that were deemed corrupt i.e. Babylon or Zoroastrian and condemning these so-called “sinners” to eternal hell and suffering while the real sinners called Muslims, who had rampaged almost half the world and ravaged thousands to millions of women with their insatiable thirst for sex would be headed for a heaven where they’re promised 72 virgin females for each dweller. Where is the gracefulness, and mercy of your jealous god Allah in which you recite everyday in your prayers?

I agree to freedom of practicing religions that are non-destructive such as Judaism, Christianity, Hinduism, Buddhism, Wicca and all others except Islam. Islam is the religion that should be eradicated from the hearts of every human beings, and the truth of Islam’s destructive teachings be taught throughout history so that it shall not be emulated again, same as Nazism.

Chinese-style card predictions.

Hi readers.

First of all I’m not gonna disclose my whole life story, maybe I’ll hint a little bit about myself in a few posts here and there. Anyways the recent name I have given to myself after apostatizing from Islam comes from my original name given at birth which sounds not so “Muslim” but rather much more English or Germanic, combined with my ancestral Japanese name which in my family is not considered hereditary anymore since the Chinese side cares more for their paternal lineage instead of their maternal, thus I shall write my name as such if I ever get the chance to move to another country:


Call me an Asian heathen, I just don’t care. Somehow during my first time going through fortune tellers (mostly Chinese) I was so determined that all these predictions was a hoax, but in the end I think most of the events predicted by these fortune tellers did happened, but most of them weren’t a happy ending. This one above was taken after I did my own prediction on my future girlfriend’s characteristics which I haven’t met yet. Anyways there are certain ways for drawing out all cards (something like Tarot) and it involves asking the question which you’re seeking the answer for while shuffling. Click on the image for a larger view.

The set of cards needed for this prediction is all the 7’s to Aces in every group: Diamonds, Clovers, Hearts and Spades. Altogether you’ll have 32 cards total. And these are the guidelines to what each cards mean:

7’s: Red indicates characteristics of a person who could change during certain circumstances; they could be either helpful or cruel, Black indicates a total backstabber.
8’s: Friend.
9’s: House/Relatives.
10’s: Luck.
J’s: Possibly a young male.
Q’s: Young females/Older women.
K’s: Older men.
A’s: Money.
For the J’s, Q’s and K’s – Red indicates fair complexion while Black indicates dark complexions.

According to my prediction in the image above, in which I asked what are the characteristics of that particular women who would be my coming future girlfriend, this would be the breakdown:

Middle: Fair young female, possible financial stability.
North: Female with fair complexion, wealthy and has luck. Usually indicates a sponsor, possibly her mother.
South: A young male and female couple of dark complexion. Possibly her companions, as she gains luck by hanging out with these couple, somehow these are the type of people who could turn tides depending on certain events.
West: A young male friend, fair complexion, rich and has luck. Not stated in the prediction, but if after winning her heart I were to neglect her this guy might have the biggest chance of becoming her next lover.
East: A house where two elderly men with fair complexion lives and cares for her. Not necessarily relatives of hers, could be her teachers or godfathers.
North-West: Indication of a friend who is super-jealous of her and might do bad things to her.
North-East: A house where a young, darker complexion male friend lives. Possibly one of her friends.
South-West: A house in which a darker complexion female lives in. Her friend.
South-East: Two darker complexion older male and a young fair male.

All the four 45 degree areas such as NW, NE, SW and SE are indirect influences to her life while the North, South, West and East areas are direct influences. This means that my future girlfriend is fair (possibly a White or an Asian), is financially stable, has wealthy sponsors/family, friendly and almost everybody loves her except for a few who is ultimately jealous of her achievement. This might convince me the next time I fall in love, but I’m still skeptical on whether this prediction will come true. Anyways I do hope that this prediction will come true, I have been loveless quite a long time already since many girls whom I fell in love with during the past are mostly those of the financially unstable type who would take away my vitality.

Other than believing in predictions, one should meditate – visualize and make up your minds on what you want to become instead of waiting for nothing to happen or pray 5 times a day and ending up becoming an idiot who wastes their money on Hajj to Mecca instead of bringing their child to a joy ride in Disneyland or Universal Studios. Hehe.